Day 5 - Imbalances/Sowing Seeds

As the training continues and gets deeper and more advanced, I am noticing a conflict in myself. An area of imbalance. It is one of humility and individuality. Being here in the presence of Tony, humility is easy. His knowledge of the yoga, his personal practice, his energy, his wisdom. It is easy to keep my mouth shut, listen to him and try to incorporate as much as possible. 

But as we get deeper into the experience, I am learning so much from my fellow students. Everyone has a different area of expertise, different obstacles they've had to overcome, different insights and experiences. I find myself enriched by their questions, comments and stories. So I feel like I can and should offer myself to them too. My experience and perspective might help someone else. 

I feel as though I should embrace my own perspective and individuality while also subordinating to Tony's expertise. This is a challenging concept for me.

I must also find a balance between my own practice and the teaching skills that we are here to learn, especially during the twice daily practice sessions when Tony pulls people out to teach different postures. At the end of each posture, I run my mind over what comes next and the steps involved, just in case he comes to my mat. It prepares my teaching mind, but pulls me out of my practicing mind. 

More and more I feel like we are farmers. Here Tony is supplying us with more seeds that we can keep track of. Then we must return to our lives, sow the seeds within ourselves and our community, and grow what we have learned through our own work.