Last Morning In Cabo/Implosion

We leave at noon today. So this morning I went out to the beach for one last sunrise. Most of our fellow students have gone, but there are a few stragglers that leave today or tomorrow. What has been a breakfast table of 20 yogis was only 4 this morning.

When we return to our real lives, the true challenge will begin. How will we integrate the yoga into our lives and ourselves? How will we bring it to our peers and our community? How will we practice? How will we teach? How will we make the time with all our other commitments? 

When we signed up for this training last spring, I was ignorant of what to expect. Tony seemed to share a lot of my values regarding the yoga and the practice, but I had no idea what the experience would be like, what Tony would be like, or what we would actually learn. 

Now I am so happy to have studied with Tony. His emphasis on common sense and nutrition; his demand of personal commitment, practice and fundamentals (like alignment); his attention to energy that reminds me so much of my martial arts training. These are all beliefs that I share with him that I did not know about going into the training. 

Tony mentioned many times that we must create implosions instead of explosions. We must first come to understanding within ourselves before we try to guide others. 

So my plan (as of right now) is to go home and practice. I will inevitably end up teaching a few classes here and there to family and friends, but my focus will be on gaining personal understanding and integration. I have a lot of familiarity, struggle and intimacy to build with these postures, this practice, before I can teach with any integrity or individuality.